Nothing is ever really lost, or can be lost, no birth, no identity, form – no object of the world, nor life, nor any visible things; the body, sluggish, aged, cold, – the embers left, shall duly flame again.
~ Walt Whitman
Today marks my father’s 5th death anniversary. I cannot believe that it has been 5 years already, we sure miss him every single day + cannot help but think that life will be so much better if he + my Mama were around. The little man would’ve had a better + fun childhood that is for sure! His grandparents would’ve smoldered him with kisses + love, + Papa would’ve spoiled him rotten, too!
…we miss you everyday, Pa, I guess losing a father is one of those things that never really grow on you no matter what you do. I keep looking back at those wonderful memories, those summers in my childhood spent biking around the neighborhood, laying our tattered old mat in the rice field + flying kites. I remember the last few months we spent with you + that fateful day, like it was yesterday. I will tell Jared all about you when he is bigger + I promise I will make sure that I pass onto my little man everything that you taught me, hopefully including the love for word puzzles + books, too!
I know that you are in a much better place now, Pa, but I cannot simply stop to think how our lives will be like if you + Mama were still around. We shall continue to uphold the values + lessons that you taught us + hopefully, in our own little way we make you proud up there!
Though, I have never really seen you danced, I wish I did + what I wouldn’t give to have that dance with you…We shall see you again, Pa, until then know that you will always be loved + missed!
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Today was my dad’s 5th anniversary, was googling and stumbled upon your post. Liked it, pretty much what was in my mind. You are right we can never grow out of the loss of losing a parent. Thanks and have a lovely day!
I am so sorry for your loss. It is true, you will never fully grasp the magnitude of losing a parent until you became a parent yourself. I guess it helps to think that they are in a much better place now. Sometimes, when I miss them terribly, I look up in the sky wishing I’d catch a glimpse of their loving familiar faces among the clouds.
Today marks my Dad’s third anniverssary. I’ve read your anniverssary and it has touched me alot. May God bless you and make you more strong.
Thank you. May God bless you, as well, and give you the strength you need to deal with your loss.
Today marks my dad’s 2nd anniversary, and im missing him greatly. Wish he was still alive
It really never gets easy 🙁 I have lost my Papa for more than a decade now and sometimes it still feels like it was only yesterday…